[TW] Rape
I’ll protect everyone’s Identity including abusers because they are still human.
I was 12 or 13 when I got my first period and it felt weird… I was ashamed and confused. I might have heard about it but I didn’t know what to do.
“Ohh you can have babies now” said Joana. As if I had any interest in babies or in having a relationship with anyone by this time. They made me want it though. “You gonna like it”, said Melissa “It’s time already”… They laugh and sang to bully me. They pressure me to have sex with a guy much older than me. Damion. The same that took Melissa’s virginity, by the way, as it was some kind of trophy. I didn’t want it, I never asked for it. I am actually happy it wasn’t bad as it is to other people. Damion was way nicer than them, and he noticed I was uncomfortable and not even excited, but afraid and confused. He never told them and until around my 15’s Melissa thought I wasn’t virgin. Joana might not even know till nowadays.
Whose fault is that? Who cares? It is done, and it is past. What really matters is that I healed from it, so that I won’t bleed my trauma on anybody else. And I really hope they heal from that too.
I learned from it: To never shut up, to never be silent. To speak and stand for myself.
I’m sorry, and Thank you for understanding, even if you don’t.