{"id":1389,"date":"2024-07-09T22:29:47","date_gmt":"2024-07-10T05:29:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/?p=1389"},"modified":"2025-04-22T00:02:04","modified_gmt":"2025-04-22T07:02:04","slug":"a-niw-home","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/a-niw-home\/","title":{"rendered":"A niw home&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div class=\"wp-block-group nfd-bg-effect-dots has-global-padding is-layout-constrained wp-block-group-is-layout-constrained\">\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I haven&#8217;t updated for quite some time, I know&#8230; Moving to a new home is not easy and when you are by yourself with a children it is even harder. I feel lucky that I have someone who cares and help&#8230; I know I have good friends, I&#8217;m just unlucky they are so far&#8230;<br><br>The events that made me conclude that I had no other option, it all came abruptly, it was confused and I still processing what happened&#8230; <br><br><mark style=\"background-color:#b1c5a4\" class=\"has-inline-color\">Why when it came out of your mouth it was nothing, but when it came out of mine it was a harsh accusation? <\/mark><br><mark style=\"background-color:#b1c5a4\" class=\"has-inline-color\">What is the difference? <br>I just saw what you said. <br>I felt what you saw. <br>I acted on your opinion. <br>But I&#8217;m the one being blamed. <br>What is that?! <br>Why do you want to make me confused? <\/mark><br><br>These questions keep circulating my mind, and I don&#8217;t even want an answer, I just wanna leave this place and stop getting to conclusions because they are all scary to consider. <br><br><mark style=\"background-color:#b1c5a4\" class=\"has-inline-color\">I came because of you in the first place, and now you tell me I did it all wrong? <br>I just followed the plan&#8230; <br>I followed your plan&#8230; <br>I followed you&#8230; <br>I put myself second when I heard you&#8217;re feeling lonely.<br>I left all behind and I restarted for you.<br>To be with you&#8230; <\/mark><br><mark style=\"background-color:#b1c5a4\" class=\"has-inline-color\">Because I wanted you to be happy&#8230;<\/mark><br>You deserve it&#8230;<mark style=\"background-color:#b1c5a4\" class=\"has-inline-color\"><br>But this is a problem I created, right?<\/mark><br><br>And my problem is that I trust too much. And I love too deeply to the point I ignore my own needs and wants. and when I realize I did it, it&#8217;s already too late.<br><br>I just want to live my simple life, pay my debt and listen to no more lies.<br><mark style=\"background-color:#b1c5a4\" class=\"has-inline-color has-contrast-color\">Why did you lied to me?&#8230;<\/mark><\/p>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Lots of confusing thoughts to share good news&#8230; Every good thing that happens also comes with some destruction&#8230; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[30],"tags":[25,29,63,47],"class_list":["post-1389","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-niws","tag-blues","tag-keep-going","tag-move","tag-time"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1389","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1389"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1389\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1465,"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1389\/revisions\/1465"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1389"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1389"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/niwniw.net\/bujo\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1389"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}